Sleep on it

That's one thing that is true. If you sleep on something, you'll be more clear about it then. I've done it. I'm still not ok with what happened. Not the fact in itself, but I still blame you. 

I said I'll do it when I'll be ready. I wasn't on that day, and in one way you imposed it to me. All I wanted was a moment alone with you, and I almost had to beg for it. 

I guess what I'd like is you to recognize that none of this was ideal, and that you put me in a situation even if I warned you before about it. 

My bestfriends can ask me anything, apart from doing something I refused, and also none of you are allowed to be sad. I can't fake my emotions, it's one thing I'll refuse to do no matter what.

So for now it feels like something is broken. And nothing was broken before, I think that's why it's that hard. 

I hope it'll soon fly away. Life goes on, I do too, but this is here and I need to say it.

Our movie

http://youtu.be/jUL1WqWnNiE

Life, love, friendship

3 words yeah, like "I love you", 3 words and then loads of meanings. Those 3 words are more complex than others sometimes if it means a lot to you. And it does to me.

Life, well you didn't choose it, nobody did, I'm just trying to make the best of it. Being proud of who I am and of my values. 

Love, I guess it's the key of life. Everything happens for a reason. And those 3 words are linked no matter what. 

Friendship, it's linked too, and it means the world to me, put me through hell sometimes. 

So I'm wondering, how far can you accept something for love? Making me do something that I refused, is that still love and friendship? Or obliged myself to do something for you isn't betraying myself?

Finding out that those months away from the life, the place, the routine I had, changed me, make me grown up on my own, because you are not here 24/7 anymore... 

Knowing also that those questions are silly but they are in my mind, can't help it, I feel hurt ... and sad, I don't know if this pain will go away, it's the first time you make me feel that way, I didn't expect it at all, didn't see it coming either ... 

I'll never tell you what you have to do, we already suffered from someone who did that to us ... Don't ask me then to do it please. 

And yeah I'm stubborn, but nothing new there.

This situation won't probably change anyhing, but who knows. I'll give you a child one day, and I'll be proud of it, cuz I'll see you and me in it, and that child would change the world if it wants too.  

I need you and miss you more than ever.  But I also never feel as stronger as I feel now.

I guess it's a new step yeah probably, and we both need to accept changes while respecting the other one as we always did. Remember all the time that we might understand each other on everything or almost but we are still different and nothing will never be the same cuz life goes on and so do we.

Xo

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